5:40 AM

Can't sleep. The topic of being a coward came up in a conversation the other day with someone. And i stood firmly that i was not being a coward in regards to the issue we were discussing. Then i started to think about if i was a coward in general. Perhaps i'm not who i think i am. i mean i know what i stand for - but does anyone else? Not that anyone needs to know, but how do i work for what i believe in? Simply thinking about topics doesn't change them. I was talking to another friend about health care in our country and how absolutely outrageous and terrifying it is. She brought up the movie Sicko. Michael Moore went to France and asked how they managed to keep the health care system affordable, etc. The response was 'There would be riots in the streets.' How passive or complacent have we become in our country? We talk about an awful lot, but what do we do about it. Do we feel defeated? we need to do more for this country for the well-being of our children.

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A scene from Thailand...

Happy Halloween

Today was spent going from place to place with my very own teletubby LaaLaa asking for more candy than any individual should consume in a year. seriously, LaaLaa was given pounds of candy. people's generousity was overwhelming. The neighborhood was giggling with children and glowing with detailed pumpkins and halloween lights. It conjured images of the 50's - ok - i wasn't here but its what i imagine. Kids running around, laughing, using wonderful manners - it was glee. And when LaaLaa returned home this evening he was excited to actually hand out candy -- he knew he had a ton - he would get so excited when more trick or treaters arrived - he'd GASP and say "MORE CHILDREN! HAVE SOME CANDY!"

still stuck on the environmental....

this may become a reoccuring theme on my blog so i apologize in advance. our earth is completely saturated with toxins. even the organic stuff can't be completely organic. is there completely pure dirt? can't be - it's impossible isn't it? even if it's "newly produced" it still came from something that was contaminated. water has always been my drink of choice - and does it matter? the water may have been thru pvc, the water may have leached from the plastic bottles, it may not have even been filtered at all. i know this is not news. i just can't believe how far we've come and how far those advantages are ignored. i'm not even making sense i'm so mad.

On Another Note...

I had a dream the other night. The Red Sox were in the World Series against the Colorado Rockies. The games were being played in San Francisco in a tiny field sqeezed in between 2 hi-rise buildings. and the bleachers were about 60 seats wide and 100 rows deep. my cousin J had seats in the last row. i had a birds eye view - but was not actually there. As the Rockies began to win the game the sox fans became very sad and started to leave the game. As seats emptied people moved closer to the field. Ended up the Sox lost (which we all know isn't possible). J then went to work at a bar and her uniform was an outfit that Olivia Newton John wore in Xanadu - headband, leg warmers and all. and then i woke up.

Planet in Peril

Lou and i watched Planet in Peril on CNN the other night - a tremendous piece - terrifying. I love the fact that i am fortunate enough to be surrounded by people who share a concern for the earth. Our neighbors recycle, our friends recycle - it's becoming second nature to our children - i just wish i saw more of it in our country. The continuous building of McMansions truly boggles my mind. Why isn't it second nature to our society yet? The information is hard to miss - its so readily available. It seems that some people view it as a political ploy - i just can't comprehend that. Say all - or even a tenth of the information available about global warming and pollution isn't completely reliable - SO WHAT? Why not recycle anyway? What will it hurt? How much time will it take? I am so scared for the earth that we will pass on to our children. The damage we've already done may be irreparable. We're basically gift-wrapping death and disease for generations to come.

Even more images of San Francisco

i am going to sound corny but i can't believe how much this country has to offer. J took me to the parks around SF - CRAZY BEAUTIFUL! Even the colony of naked men we ran across.
And speaking of California, i pray for rain.

My current favorite puppy, Atticus.

Chinatown - San Francisco

Chinatown, SF, CA - SO plastic and so PURE! Fantastic stuff - the smell of leeching plastics everywhere. If its crass, funny or cute (and plastic) its found in chinatown. And if its a product of the earth or any animal on earth its found in chinatown. The environment is completely contrived yet absolutely natural.

Alcatraz

This is an image of the cell that the prisoners were placed in for solitary confinement. The bars would shut, then a solid steel door would shut and they'd be left alone in the pitch black. One of the prisoners said that he would rip a button off of his coveralls, throw it up in the air and spend the following few hours searching for it in the dark - for some reason i felt it symbolic of our time here.

This stairway led to the second level of cells. And the door to the world outside of their limited existence is steps away.

Pillows and blankets.

This is the roof of a guard station - oddly charming isn't it?

Beautiful death. (i'm so profound)

Alcatraz was captivating. and i have my Babci (grandmother) to thank for buying me a ticket for my birthday.


More San Francisco images to come tomorrow.

The Re-Debut!

Thanks to my dear friend Lily i am up and running again with the Blogspot! Gosh i can talk through anything with her!

My updates website will be launched this comming Monday and the jobs will come rolling in! :) Lou (my sweet husband) and Paz my keen son have been a great help to me during this development as well.

Pics of my trip to San Francisco will be posted soon (see above image)! I spent a week with my cool cousin J and her son (black lab) Atticus. Went to alcatraz and felt oddly at home there. ;)

The above image is a detail of the supply room for the prisoners. So orderly, so isolating.

Blog ya later.